Archive for April, 2004

Ocular agony

Saturday, April 24th, 2004

It is the first rising of the celestial torch that finds me now. It has been another night of sporadic and disjointed rest; in waking, I find my eyelids cemented shut by the solidified secretions from the lacrimal gland.

Those initial seconds of confusion pass, a brief and painful rubbing relents the blinds to allow a vague perception of light; then detail.

The vision before me is foreign, a set of dark objects that seem not to make sense. It takes a while, but soon my visual cortex remembers the natural phenomena of perspective. Distant objects will converge upon each other; the scene morphs out of ambiguity revealing my own room.

This is the second morning I have awoken this way, eyes bloodshot, unrested, unrefreshed, not another. Please make it stop.